How did I get here?

I find myself wondering how I got to this place! How did I become a woman of 43 years with 3 children, as young as 3 years old, just enjoying my life... to having had my thyroid removed and now looking forward to Radioactive Iodine? Cancer was not supposed to hit until we were older! We are supposed be taking care of our parents. Not teaching our kids about how to help me get thru this! I started this blog to help me have a place to vent... share, talk and just put thoughts down where I could get them out and not have to worry about what not to say. If you got to this blog... welcome... and I am a little sorry you have to read my rantings!

I am surprised at how much better I feel than I thought I would. I had my surgery almost 4 weeks ago, still waiting to get my TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) levels up. It seems to be taking FOREVER! My nodule was the size of a golf ball... which is crazy when the thyroid is the size of a quarter! At 3 weeks post op my TSH level was 18 and I need it to get over 30. I just hope this is the week... that I can get it done. Then I can do my low iodine diet and the RIA and be done with it!!

Let me just say one other thing... I am super tired of not having my voice at full capacity. It has gone from a whisper for the 2 weeks after the surgery to about 80 percent now. I am getting there, though... it just can't come soon enough! I miss singing to my little one at bedtime, reading to my kids, talking with my hubby at night and talking on the phone!!

I do have to say... I am grateful to be alive! I am grateful to have a fabulous surgeon that could get this done quickly and to have supportive family and friends that love me and want to help our family! I am blessed beyond measure. I don't want to be one of those people that whine all the time... just once in a while!!

Thanks for letting me get it out!